Sugar Thoughts

2008-05-28T01:31:00.000-07:00

Pasal Edy 3

2008-05-19T07:54:00.000-07:00

Zaman Piccadilly berlaku taklah lama sangat.
Selapas tiada lagi gig gig di situ, dan Piccadilly juga telah ditutup sepenuhnye, we continue our fun of being youth kat the best area in Malaysia, Taman Tun. Kebetulan, maple DU yg dulunye jadi tempat lepak di waktu mlm pun tukar ke tempat baru, Uptown. Lebih canggih. A more proper place to eat. More hygine. Tapi tak best sgtlah. Pastu ada pulak giant concrete baru bukak, One Utama.

At this time, Edy lagi selalu to hang out at these areas. Kadang kadang sampai tak balik rumah seminggu. His parent's house was at Bandar Tun Razak . And by that chance, i got to see him more often, sebab lagi dekat. Agak extreme tahun tahun ini. Banyak scene action, drama, street fight dan sebagainye. Lebih lebih lagi dengan wujudnye Uptown Bootboys. Hmmm....sangat thrill tapi happy. Well, I dont really want to write about the bad ones, kite cite yg best best je lah. Haish haish, menakutkan ok zaman zaman dulu, tapi fun.

Antara yang tak fun is that there were lots of fighting.
It became more stressful bila Edy pun antara general & juga frontman yg menganggotai setiap misi ntah apa apa nih. Mana tak pening, bila jadi apa apa , i would be the one . There's 1 time I was lepaking at Uptown, tgh minum mlm, and he passed by with a bunch of his army,pastu duduk next to me, dgn baju yg koyak rabak, baru lepas gaduh pastu lagi boleh relax je lepak lepak. Dah lah baju yg koyak tuh was given by me. And lebih sedih lagi, it belongs to my dad. A handmade V-neck jumper made in UK. My dad wore it masa dia study dulu 1969 kat london.

But anyway, at this era, Edy was somehow acted more violent and more aggresive. But the way he treated me was still good. Masa tu i was staying at Jalan Rahim Kajai, so every week without fail, he came to fetched me, pastu kita pegi One Utama lepak tengok wayang, makan minum, shopping.

Talking about our relationship, it was fun at that time. Lebih best sebab ada kawan yg ramai. Mcm satu OU tu kita kenal. Haha. Dah tau mana nak cari diorang ni kalau kat OU. Mana lagi kalau bukan kat tangga Mc Donald. Masa tu i didnt go to school sebab konon nak pegi Australia. Pastu i decided tak nak pegi luar and my dad register kan sekolah Grammar International School kat Ampang. Seblah sekolah KL international School. Tapi kalau masuk sekolah tu kena tinggal dgn my uncle yg dok kat ampang. So- not cool so i decided not to go. Cari punye cari i waited 3-4 months at home without going to any school.Tapi at last masuk private school called MYPM kat Bangi. MYPM was quite a popular school at that time, My elder sister, Diba teringin sangat ,masuk skolah tuh. Macam trend lah at that time. Kiranye dia punye cool tu mcm masuk Lim Kok Wing skarang nih lah. So i entered that school.
Dok asrama. Tapi my mom belikan hp walaupun dilarang membawa hp di skolah, i became the first to break the law. Haha. Sayang skolah tu dah takde lagi. Lepas tu private scool yg top ada satu kat Negeri Sembilan, but I cant remember the name. Tak ingatlah. We were the last batch kat situ sebelom skolah tu ditutup .Bayangkan the one and only batch. Ada dalam 5 classes, satu class adalah dlm 25 org. Tak ada junior langsung. Tapi that was the best school ever. Complete dgn cafe, satu bilik share 3 org complete dgn bilik air, ada swimming pool, tennis court kat dorm, laundry, classroom ada air-cond. Walaupun terperok dkt Bangi tapi student kat sini ada je cara nak meng'sosial'kan diri.Hehe. Sekolah tu ikut silibus British, so masuk class pukul 8am habis skolah at 4pm. Memang best and guess what!?I was one of the top scorer for Tassawur Islam. Hahahaha. Kenapa? Tak percaya ye?:-)

Time i masuk skolah asrama ni lah, weekend je i mesti balik taman tun. Tak pun lepak umah family Edy. Time tu arwah Ibu edy ada lagi. Dialah antara mak yg paling sporting, paling loving, paling best , paling understanding, paling baik hati dlm dunia ni. Walaupun she was half paralysed tapi dia tersangat best lah. No 1 Mom!

Masa dok kat asrama ni lah phone je is the only option. Mlm mlm if it wastn me, then Edy yg akan call, so we chatted for at least half an hour per day. Ingat lagi no lama dia - 0188328834. Gile old skool. And my first no was - 010 2197374. If im not mistaken lah. Tak berapa ingat my own number.

Tahun 1997 -1998, tak bnyk yg boleh di share. Sebab bnyk yg too privacy & tak elok untuk di blog kan. So let that just be kept in my membran.But we actually went thru quite a lot of ups and downs. But yeah, we made it again! Yeah yeah!

The main turning point at these years was that Edy got his idea to form a ska band, Gerhana Skacinta. Edy dulu selalu bagi casette suruh aku dengar kat asrama, lagu lagu Jugde Dread, Desmond Dekker , The Maytals, and etc. He was no longer with ACAB at that time atas sebab sebab P&C. He was alone. Most of the friends semua split out. Buat hal sendiri. So did him. I remember one day I came to his house. He was like excitedly tell me about his idea to form a ska band. He said he wanna play the trumpet and he wanna learn how to play it. So few weeks after, dengan duit belanja skolah yg i got weekly, i save to buy him his first trumpet yg made in China. Just to get him familiar dgn fingering trumpet. So 2 minggu kumpul, duit dah cukup. Me, Edy & Gajah of The Suspect AKA pegi Wah Fat kat Jln Silang to buy Edy's frist trumpet. Tak silap dalam rm400.
The first song yg Edy compose untuk GSC is Hadirnya Cinta. Masa lagu tu dah siap lirik & melody, Edy beriya suruh dengar sambil dia main gitar & nyanyikan. It was for me, he said. Awwww...soooooo sweeeeett....
Other than that song, Midnight Katari & Mimpi adalah lagu yg paling touching sekali sebab it holds the fondest memories in our relationship, not to forget lagu Mimpi.

Meanwhile, Edy belajar trumpet dgn Rejab. Life goes on as usual, Dia jaga Kedai kat Puduraya.
I was getting older . Hehe. Sebab dah nak habis skolah. Masa nak ambik SPM edy belikan geometry set kat Jusco One Utama. Colour pink lagi. Kadang kadang Edy dtg my school to visit me. Penah kantoi dgn pengetua cum my aunty. Outsiders tak boleh masuk kawasan sekolah. I broke the law and ooops, i did it over & over again. During school, I was not a harworking student. Agak malas. Sebab bercinta kot. honestly, masa dah nak SPM, I pray more than i study. Dgn harapan miracle lah dapat good grade. The only subject that i really studied was Mathematic, last minute study lah nih. Tu pun sebab tak pernah lulus ujian sampai my mom fed up. Tak pernah lulus & i failed ALL the exams. Malas & tak teringin pun nak belajar. Form 4 & form 5 mmg i tak pernah lulus math. So 2 weeks before SPM my mom suruh i balik umah for 1o days. Tak payah pegi skolah, and she hire me a good math tutor,named Kak Afzan. Kak Afzan said, "Kak Afzan rase kalau hanim betul betul boleh pick pun, u can only get C5 for my math".
I was like, wooo, cool, janji lulus. Sebab dlm masa 10 hari dia tak boleh nak ajar semua. So, I was kinda her bahan ujian, whether her method of teaching & theory tu berhasil atau tidak. masa tu lagi ngam ngam 2 weeks nak SPM. i only got 10 days to study math dari bab 1. Sumpah aku tak paham langsung math ni so i got to re-learn everything. And at that time, kalau nak masuk IPTA or IPTS, wajib lulus math. So my mom was so worried. So i actually only studied Math & Pendidikan Islam, tu pun sebab mmg aku minat sgt bab bab agama nih. Anyway, i got Grade 1 for my SPM.
Sangat terkejut! Semua credit, kecuali add math i failed. Pastu Pendidikan Islam & Tassawur Islam , i got A1 for both subject. Hehe. Not bad. Math? I got C4. Exceed expectation ok!

I always wanted to be a pilot or an architect. I enrolled kat Lim Kok Wing. masa tu Lim Kok Wing dkt Pj so it was near to my home. Tak bertahan lama. 1 sem je sebab ambience dia amat membosankan. Time ni mcm dah slow doen sikit dgn Edy. Tapi kadang kadang ada jugak dia buat surprise visit naik vespa kuning dia or pinjam kete bapak dia.

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Pasal Edy 2.

2008-05-04T07:56:00.000-07:00

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Okay, so, when we are officially together, I was happy. Actually nak blog pasal our relationship ni tak banyak yg boleh reveal. Banyak yg too privacy. I can only reveal the story on the surface je lah.

"Hanim, jadi steady gf Edy nak ?"
Hehe. Macam tergantung je ayat tu kan. Ayat ego. If he wanna be more gentle he could twist the question jadi 'Can i be your steady bf ?' instead of asking me to be his gal kan. Dia lah should offer himself. By the way, tu lah ayat dia bila nak couple masa dulu. Takpelah, budak budak lagikan. So i accepted him the way he is. My sister is the witness. Sebab dalam bilik kitorang dulu ada phone. Kira canggih ah budak skolah ada phone dalam bilik. And Diba could listen clearly sebab pasang speakerphone. Eh, ke dia letak telinga dia dekat dekat. I cant remember.

But si Edy ni, he actually is going out with someone else. Dia dah ada gf and I didnt know that. Celake betol. His band member yg inform me what his activities are at that time. His very close friends. Diorang ni mcm ada pakatan menjatuhkan Edy's x-gf so i got more advantage on that to win the game. Muahahaha. I siap boleh tau dia keluar pegi mana, dia lepak Lot 10 dgn sape, pegi Starhill dgn sape, buat apa, makan apa, pakai baju apa without doing nothing. Nasib ada spy bertauliah. I didnt ask for that, diorang yg selalu hantar report. Few early months tu mmg me & him ada lah berpasang pasang spare part. Eh, dia ada sorang je. Dan juga berpasang surut. But that didnt stop us. In fact, it actually makes our bond stronger. But when I knew that he already got a gf, bengang lah jugak babe. Not because of love, tapi sebab ego lah. How could he did that to me. Jatuhlah standard konon. We broke up. Masa tu rasenye after 4 months together, bulan Sept or October. I called him up, pastu i tanye is it true that u r still together with ur gf? U kata dah broke up? And he said she came back to him soon after she got back from USA holidaying. So, ok fine. I'll go.

I stopped calling him. Tapi dalam hati ada jugak rase macam, kau tgk lah sape cari sape nanti.
And if u return back to me, taulah aku nak revenge balik. Siap kau!
Hehe. meanwhile sempat juga aku berdating with 3 of my schoolmates. 1 senior and another 2 same form. At the same time Edy never stop calling me. Masa couple kejap tu he used to call me everyday. Tapi we never have a long chat. Setakat 10-15 min pastu kalau nak berbual kita jumpa. At least jumpa once a week. And he noramyll called me from Pudu tak pun from his hse. Bila dah broke up tu dia ada jugak call once or twice a week, tak everyday lagi. And then at 1 point dia ada gig kat Penang. ACAB ada show kat sana. So, before he left for Penang pun he called me to inform yg dia ada gig kat Penang and all and about to leave.
I can easily made an assumption yang dia mmg cant forget me. He is in confused. Dont want to let me go & at the same time he didnt know how to end up his relationship with his X-gf, L**D*. Kalau tak, buat apa dia sibok sibok call me lagi kan? So, kiranya, I'm leading the game babeyh! Yeah, I'm the woman. Woohooo!

Sampailah on my birthday eve on the 17th December 1996, dia call and we have a long chat. He confessed that he miss me, pastu mcm takleh nak get along lagi dgn gf dia. Pastu he already made his mind up, he chose me, blah blah blah, and he really wanna get things back together. I thought, terror jugak aku, coz he was with that girl for more than a year. Agak lama. So for him to choose me yg baru je 3-4 months dgn dia, agak membanggakan. :-) . Masa tu dahlah ura ura I tgh nak sambung blajar kat St Hilda's College kat Australia. Approval from the government dah dapat. Enrolment pun kira smooth lah tinggal lagi nak byr je college tu, sebab offer letter semua dah dapat. My dad pun mmg encourage suruh belajar kat luar. Tak payah ambik PMR, ambik O level terus kat sna. I should be going with a good friend of mine, Edura. Tapi bila Edy dah begging semua tuh i thought i would give him a chance. End up, Edura je yg pegi sorang sorang. Sampai sekarang dia keje kat Australia dah jadi warga sana pun. She's a doctor now.
And i really really miss her. Kawan naik basikal, roller blade, pegi skolah sama sama, we slept at each other's house every week.

Ok. So, after hours on the phone, i remember i scolded him. Time ni lah ambik kesempatan nak maki maki sikit kan. See how can he tahan. Nyeh nyeh. mamat tu macam tak kisah pun kena maki semua. Antara sentences yg i still remember is that :" Apsal Edy ni? Buang tebiat?"," Eh, Hanim muak ah dgr Edy cakap"," Tengoklah mcm mana, Hanim takleh nak decide skarang","Habis, takkan Edy nak tinggalkan L**D* macam tu je?". And antara yg dia cakap: "Please lah, bagi Edy satu lagi chance, "Edy dah buat decision for real", " Edy nak jumpa boleh?", When can i get the answer?".
Those were some part of the conversation yg i still remember. Kot kot ada yg nak visualize the moment, so senang sikit i bagi dialog tu kan. Hehe.The next day is my bithday. Edy nak jumpa sangat. Mamat ganas nih begging aku. Wow. Bagus bagus. So tgh hari i dah siap nak pegi One Utama. Kat situlah tempat dating. I was waiting kat luar Mc Donald. Konon nak mcm ago ego tapi i came early that day. Kantoi betollah. Konon konon nak tunjuk dia yg i malas ah nak jumpa dia. Tapi mcm tak dapat hide my happy feeling je. Biarlah. So, he came with a bouquet of roses ( tak silap 2 dozen ) pastu ada bag Levi's. Wooohoo, dapat Levi's Jeans. Ingatkan paper bag je Levi's, tapi isi ntah apa apa. So i got a straight cut 502 jeans, which is my favourite at that time.

We are back together once again.
So, his spare part thing settled. He told me the whole story how he asked for a break up dgn x-gf dia. Kesian jugak. But, what to do. I cant tell the story here sebab it involves 3rd party. Tak baiklah pulak kan. At the same time, i still have some spare parts. Konon konon revenge lah. Hehe.I remember next gig kat Picadilly, I was having my meal kat Dave's Deli Atria when he came to me with Akai pastu mcm emo saying that he didnt have another gal accept me.
Sambil keluarkan wallet dia, "Ha, tengok wallet Edy, mana ada gambar perempuan lain, ada gambar Hanim je".
And he kept on merepek repek. Air & my food tumpah. Tiba tiba dia jadi emo & bising. Dahlah ada ramai customer tgh makan, family pulak tuh. Pastu jadi scene kat Deli tu, sampai dia kena tarik dgn security. Nasib baik ada Akai yg boleh control dia sikit.
Ting tong apa mamat nih. Dahlah tiba tiba datang. He didnt know i was there tapi dia lalu depan Deli and saw me eating alone. Pastu emo pulak. Haish haish.

Selepas kena halau, i stayed at the Deli alone. Tgh tahan malu. Pastu ada sorang aunty cina ni came to me bagi nasihat. U dont waste ur time with that kind of guy. U r a nice gal and u can get better, yadda yadda. I was like, Oh, ok. I agree. Haha. Everybody's looking at me. Few minutes later, Akai came back. Dia ajak pegi jumpa Edy yg tgh lepak kat luar Picadilly. So i met him.
Emo dah kurang sikit so senanglah nak berbual dgn dia.

I was at the Deli sebab teman my sister jumpa bf dia kat Picad yg tgh perform. So i malas nak masuk and i didnt tell Edy that im coming over to Atria, padahal i tau yg dia ada gig dat day. Sebab tu dia emo. Dia ingat that I was still mad at him because of the past story. Emolah, just because I didnt tell him that i was there, tu pun nak kecoh.

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My Wedding Vendors

2008-05-03T21:06:00.000-07:00

Nikah

Kudin - Baju Nikah & Baju Hantaran
SSF - Paperbag for doorgift
Khedy ( my sis in law ) - Sponsor hantaran decoration
Khedy again! - Solemnization's Cushion
Nine West - Shoes
Syomir Izwa Sen Gupta - Make Up

Reception Kuantan

D' Nora Collection - Arch + Room Decor + Pelamin + Hand Bouquet + Body Accesories + VIP Area
Salikin Sidek - Traditional Attire
Ikea - Frames + Quilt & Cover + Table Lamp + Standing Lamp
Aussino - Bedsheet
SSF - Artificial Plant & Vase + Mini Pouch for Kids
Living Quarters - Pot Pourri
A.E.I.O.U Studio - Boxes for VIP
KadKahwinku.com - Invitations
Terengganu ( Unknown ) - Beg Mengkuang & Mini Towel for doorgift
Shasmanizam Graphy - Video + Photo
Syomir Izwa Sen Gupta - Make-up
Royal Albert - Gift for VVIP
Masjid India - Body Traditional Accesories
Merisik Gallery - Thank You Tag

Reception Kuala Lumpur

Syomir Izwa Sen Gupta - Make up + Dress + Suit + Shoes + Hand Bouquet
Fad Photoplay - Photography
Kampung Pengantin - Location & Catering
Maple Card, Bandung - Invitations
Aisram Creative - Boxes for doorgift
Lee Printing - Tag Printing
Peanut & Ayu - Icon Design
Ikea - Doorgift
Terengganu ( Unknown ) - Sandal Wood Fan
Bakri Music Workshop - Sound System

That's all for now. Nanti update lagi!

Meet The Parents

2008-05-03T06:35:00.000-07:00

Hmmm, how could i forget to pen a story the moment Edy met my parents
to officially propose me?

Me & Edy started to fantasized of getting married seriously in early of 2007. But we know, it takes a lot of effort in working things out. Yelah, banyak nak pakai duit. Pastu surely nak kena own properties sikit lah at least.We thought, it might take a lifetime to save the money to be able to afford our dream wedding, to buy a house & to have our own children. We really wanna live life to the fullest.

Tapi my dad selalu mention, it wasnt a day to build a house. Kalau nak buat benda yang baik jangan tangguh tangguh, regardless of anything & everything. There must be sumting really good in return. And please do live seadanya, ikut kemampuan sendiri. Fine. I change my mind. :-)

By now, I thought having a moderate simple life would be a perfect one. Tak perlu ada kereta mahal, tapi selalu takde minyak & road tax susah nak renew, tak guna pun rumah besar gile tapi nak byr streamyx & astro sangkut sangkut.Tak guna pun dapur canggih canggih tapi selalu makan nasi kicap telur & roti. I dont mind of having a small size house as long as it is complete with all the requirements of what a house should have. Internet, Astro, comfortable bedroom, clean fragrance bathroom, plasma TV, proper dining area, proper kitchen yg selalu penuh dgn makanan. Pastu hujung minggu kelaur makan & try new food kat restaurant yang ada kat Klang Valley nih.And then once a while pegi travel dalam and luar negara. Shopping shopping jugak tapi mestila ada saving & insurance. baru boleh spend for leisure. I dont see shopping & holiday-ing is such a waste way to spend your money tapi amat penting untuk therapy. Gile babe, ffter long hours at work, sakit badan & otak, shopping adalah amat menenangkan. Travelling pun sama, it opens up your mind jadi lagi broader and knowledgeable. Dah shopping, byr bills, makan best best, byr insurance & some savings, kenalah save jugak untuk Zakat. Barulah berkat. :-) . To live moderately is nothing to be ashamed of coz what's disgraceful is to have an impoverished heart or to live dishonestly. So, natijahnya, happiness is on top of the list.

Anyway, when we thought we are financially & mentally ready to get married, Edy decided to tie the knot in 2008. Tapi sebelum tu kenalah ada session 'Meet The Parents' dulu. I told him that I wanna know nothing about it. Takut siut. I dont care how he's gonna make the plan, so on and so forth, tapi i just dont wanna to know. So pandai pandailah arrange sendiri.

Edy dah jumpa my parents since the the early stage of our relationship, tinggal lagi I never mentioned to them that me & Edy were seriously in love because I was too young at that time. And they never asked pun walaupun Edy is the only male friend yg I went out with tiap tiap minggu, berdua. It was so obvious but maybe to them that's what puppy love is all about.Tak kisahlah. And my dad pun tak pernah suruh cari whoever to be my partner but kata my mum, carilah yang ada basic agama, sembahyang tak tinggal, responsible and boleh jaga family dari semua segi, financial, responsible, yadda , yadda....

So, on the 3rd of June 2007, ada The Ganjaran Tour kat Kuantan and The Aggrobeats was 1 of the supporting band. Edy took the opportunity to meet my parents up. Alang alang pegi sana kan. I made the intro and called my dad a week before telling him that edy is coming over to Kuantan, and he wants to meet u up...da, da, da. I got to informed him in advanced takut nanti dia ada appointment lain pulak.

"Papa, Edy nak datang Kuantan next week, dia kata nak belanja Papa makan."
"Edy mana?." My dad memang seorang yg amat loyar buruk & suka berlawak.
"Papa ni, Edy lah. kawan Hanim tu."
"Oh, Edy yang tak sunat tu?" See, told ya! :-)
"Bila?"
"Hari Ahad, dinner. Kat Hyaat.bawak Mama sekali."
" Kenapa dia nak jumpa Papa?" ish banyak tanye pulak. Aku dahlah nak cepat cepat disconnected dgn dia nih.
"Ntah, mana Hanim tahu. Ok lah oklah, so confirm ye."
"Ok. Ask him to call me again a day before it."

Phew. that was it. A quick conversation tapi cukup suspen.
He sounded playful on the phone dat day. Ingat tak ambik serious tapi Diba, my sister, told me he did asked her kenapa edy nak jumpa dia? Wah, dia pun suspen jugak.

On the 3rd June 2008 Edy called him to re-confirmed. So, the next day which falls on Monday | 4th June 2008, Edy kata satu hari dia dok dalam bilik kat Hotel Vistana layan nervous. Tapi in the morning he went out to the nearest mall cari charger hp. He was restless in the room. Sampai dah arrive at Hyaat pun he was still not in a confortable mood. He tried to seat at the best position. Poyo siut. Till the moment he saw my parents walking to the table, lagilah nervous. And when my parents sat ont he chair, first sentence occured soon after he greet them was " Takde Ala Carte, hari ni ada buffet je." Duuhhh, was that the best line? Haha.

Anyway, it took for more than hour to settle. Dah makan, story tell pasal background diri sendiri, Q&A session, but Edy said no serious question popped from my dad neither my mom. Setakat, check in mana?, Edy buat apa? Tinggal mana...yadda, yadda....Selebihnya banyak motivation seperti, jgn tinggal sembahyang blah blah. pastu ni Edy lah ata. edy cakap my dad did impress dgn cara Edy jumpa dia direct, being honest & straight forward to him, dgn kata lainnnye dia cakap edy ni gentle. That was a good point. At least he saw a good quality of him, because the truth is, Edy memang gentle. :-) I thank him for that.

Dalam conversation tu jugak Edy did mention his plan to marry me in at least a year from that date. He too, briefly bagitau my dad yg we are actually have known each other for more than 10 years, selalu jumpa and blah blah blah. My dad responsed " Uncle tau." I assume dia mmg taulah selama ni anak dia dok sibuk bercinta dgn Edy but maybe he thought we were not serious sgt. Macam jawapan Uncle tau tuh menakutkanlah. Ish ish.

The dinner ended beautifully. Semua yg planned menjadi. Alhamdulillah. Nampak macam approved je. So the moment Edy sent my parents to the car masok kete, Edy called me. Just nak update me yg semuanya ok, but we couldnt talk much sebab credit dia nak habis.

I cried silently for a while. Macam excited, bersyukur, terharu, happy, semua adalah. Over tau!
Few minutes later I called my mum when she was still in the car on the way back home from the dinner.

"Ma, apa cite. Macam mana dinner tadi?
Edy cakap apa?."
"Eh, tadi bukan Mama nampak Edy on the phone ke. Mesti call Hanim. Takkan dia tak cite?"
Ish, terkantoilah pulak. Tricky betul.
"Yelah, dia call, tapi putus takde credit," hehe, cover malu.
"Oklah, semua. tanyelah dia sendiri.Tapi Mama nak tanye, dia sembahyang tak?"
Potong ah soalan nih. But as long as she sounded ok, dah cukup happy for me.
"Sembahyang lah, tapi tak penuh."
"Takpelah, janji tahu sembahyang.
Sembahyang tu penting. Yadda yadda, blah blah blah."
"Oklah, Hanim nak call Edy pulak lah."

So, that was it. Alhamdulillah it all went good.
Thank you Papa & Mama for the trust and the bless. Thank you & Alhamdulillah.

Kudin and My Baju.

2008-05-02T17:43:00.000-07:00

Baju Hantaran & Baju Nikah - Kudin from Radzuan Radziwill

I knew Kudin from my sister. He suggested me to hire Kudin to be one of my designer for the wedding. I was like sape pulak mamat ni. Tapi her close friends yg selalu guna service Radzuan Radziwill pun banyak kali mention about Kudin nih.Sebab ramai kawan dia kata Kudin ni best and harga pun bisa dirunding. Bab bab harga ni gile penting ok. I pun bila dgr je price ok, terus ok. Confirm masok dalam list....Honestly, me, my fiance & family would prefer to have a humble + simple wedding for our both receptions. And 'budget' would be my biggest priority. Biggest ok! Budget is the main, main thing yg i deal with for the whole wedding idea. Semuanya nak budget tapi cantek. Familiar tak ayat mcm nih?Sure pening semua vendor yg kena work with me.Yet, I'm sure we still can have what we want with a minimal budget tapi limited sikitlah idea tu kan. Good design doesnt come cheap.

As usual, every fashion designer yang i dah short-listed, i took few days & weeks to read about them on the internet, tgk gambar baju baju yg diorang buat, look at their portfolio and most importantly harga mestilah yang affordable.

I called each & everyone of the designer termasuklah Kudin. Kudin work with Radzuan Radziwill. I guess he's with him for about 5 years now. We discussed re the quotation and all on the phone. Yang bestnye deal with him is that, dia datang rumah untuk measure and for further discussion pun dia dtg umah, fitting semua lah.. So, okaylah kan. Okay sangat! Bila first time jumpa dia, baru terperasan dia mana satu.

I used to google almost semua popular celebrities and kerabat raja punye wedding termasuklah yg local. Saje nak tgk dress diorang cari idea. Most of them banyak yg guna expertise Radzuan Radziwill. Selalunye ada lah gambar si Kudin ni terselit sekali. Because dia mmg assistant to Radzuan so almost every wedding yg Radzuan buat mmg ada gambar dia. So when he came to my house, i was like, mcm familiar siut mamat nih. Dia mmg tak popular pun kalau compare dgn designer lain sebab he work behind the scene. Tapi for me yg hari hari google pasal baju kadang kadang dah hafal dah muka muka behind the scene nih.

Pastu when he went back, I google again and barulah perasan dia ni selalu ikot Radzuan. Nama pun assistant kan. But i didnt know yg dia mmg betol betol assistant, ingat kan just a normal worker of Radzuan Radziwill. So from there, i gain more trust to hire him. Sebab tgk gambar dia pakaikan baju wedding bukan untuk calang2 org. From celebrities to VVIP to Yang Teramat Mulia. So, considering his experiences, kira gempak lah. Tapi yang penting, affordable ok. I repeat, affordable.

Pastu lepak dgn dia mcm kawan. Very comfortable. We can just talk about everything. Terutama gossip gossip ni banyak je idea yang datang. If he came to my house and lepak for like 2 hours, 30 minute discuss pasal baju selebihnye menjoyah nyah. :-)

Btw, he came again last week ( although penat pun belom habis sbb dia baru touch down from Dubai ) to send my baju hantaran . I bought the lace from Bandung. Tersangat lah murah. Rasenye macam belas belas ringgit je per meter. Lucky to found 1.Pastu Kudin tolong transform kan kain tu jadi kebaya modern. Cantik. Baju melayu Edy pun best. Edy suka gile. Knowing Edy, dia mmg cerewet bab bab baju & kain nih. Taste tinggi, budget rendah. Just like me. Thats why we are meant to be together. Hahaha.

So,peeps, I would love to recommend Kudin kepada sesiapa yg tgh cari fashion designer untuk wedding or Raya ke. U can just tell him your budget. Untuk wedding, price starts from rm1500. Kain sendiri beli okay. So now, i tgh tunggu baju nikah. Kudin buat baju nikah i siap dgn tudung and selendang sekali. Cant wait to see it. So anyone who wants to get his number, do send me a msg ok. Later guys.

Another day.

2008-04-22T05:46:00.000-07:00

Another day of frustration.
Within, without, below, above.

Another day of trying,
Evil is between the wing.

Another day of doubt.
Heavier than my beautiful thoughts.

Another day of hope.
Fragile like a string of rope.

Another day of day.
Still the same old story.

-Hanim-

My boss is leaving.

2008-04-21T05:41:00.000-07:00

21st April is gonna be his last day at work.Hari ni lah tuh.
After 2 years since i work at TV3, i would say i actually feel like i've been working here for more than ages. Best gile.

So when my boss who took me in ( as part of the Set Unit @ Creative Services Department ) dapat VSS, and it was approved bout month ago, i know that he will surely make a leave.

So today is the day. He's leaving & I wish him best of luck. Sedih.

p/s. He is one of our nation's famous fine art artist. His tramemark is leaves. try google Fauzin Mustafa.

Masjid India

2008-04-19T21:53:00.000-07:00

Hari ni cuti.
Jarang weekend i stay at home. Selalu ada setup.

So i thought of going to Masjid India yg jarang sangat I visit. Nak completekan barang hantaran.
Sejadah, butang baju melayu, sampin & songkok for Edy.
Sebab next week Edy dah nak hantar brg hantaran buat gubahan, and so do i.

So pagi pagi pukul 8.30 we went out for a breakfast. Kat tempat biasa at Pandan Jaya.

Then terus gerak pegi Masjid India.
Banyak kedai yg belum bukak. We were there at 9.:30am.
Kedai bukak pukul 10:00 & above.

But we manage to get all the things yg dah listed. Tak banyak pun.
But mmg worthy sebab boleh bargain.

So today hantaran completed lah kira. Except sweets & sirih. Tu beli last minute pun ok.

Hantaran to Edy : Swiss Army's Watch. Ben Sherman Shirt & Merc Braces. Kudin's Set of Baju Melayu. Boss's Sunglasses & Parfume. Lacoste's Wallet & Keychain. Al-Quran. Sirih. Biotherm's Facial Set. Fred Perry & Penguin Clothing. Habib Jewel's Wedding Ring. Thornton's Chocolate. Ted Baker's Fragrances. Vitamins

Hantaran to Hanim : Wedding Ring .$ Hantaran. Kudin's Baju Kebaya . Aigner Wallet & Keychain . Sony PSP & MP3 . Emporio Armani Sunglasses & Parfume . Swiss Army's Watch . Sirih . Telekung sembahyang & sejadah . Coach Handbag & Wristlet . Bunga Rampai

Pasal Edy 1.

2008-04-18T22:11:00.000-07:00

"Tengoklah perut Edy, tak supportive langsunglah".
Edy selalu tunjuk perut dia, pastu marah bila aku malas.

Hehe. He is trying hard to work his body out , preparing for the wedding, katanye.
He does at least 20-40 seat ups + pumping+ stretching his stomach dreaming to flatten it pastu berangan nak ada 6 pax.

Hmmmm....Macam susah je nak modify 1 barrel tummy dia.

Anyway, this entry is all about him.
Being with him for more than 11 years is a bless...
Alhamdulillah.

We knew each other in the year of 1990. masa tu we were both involved in Kelab Kanak Kanak Angkasapuri ( KKA ). He was like 11-12 and i was 8-9 years old. He was closer to my sister, Diba. Every week kita jumpa untuk practise and programme tu live every saturday morning at 11am. He never came to me and have a chat and when i asked him why, he said it aint cool to be friend with 'budak kecik'. Dia kata i was so little at that time, and dia pulak lepak konon konon dgn geng remaja. kira cool ah tuh. dahlah dress up seluar & rambut GQ pastu t-shirt grindcoere ke apa. tak cute langsung untuk masuk KKA. :-). konon konon ganas pastu bila' live' kena pakai mascot kancil pastu buat buat suara kecik. haish.

A year later, dia dah above 12. So takleh lah nak join KKA lagi coz he is no longer a kid.
So we lost contact. Diba pun tak contact dia lagi.

1996 - Diba used to went out with one of this Taman Tun guy who got a Street Rock /Punk oi! band. One evening, she wake me up from a nice nap ajak lepak padang Aminudin Baki to meet someone. We were very close,and i dont want to dissappoint her, so with my sleepy eyes, aku pun ikutlah jugak. She told me she wanted me to meet one our long lost friend. And she did mention Edy. I was like. "oh...ok..." tak excited pun.

Bila sampai, i saw a group of people duduk kat satu bangku (a complete members of ACAB was there nak gi jamming. and Edy was the guitarist | there was sham,black & megat ).
Opposite was another bench, so i sat there. Malas nak dok dekat dekat sebab malu malu. He came to the bench where i was seated sambil senyum tersipu sipu and approach, " Rokok? " ... geleng. He continued, " Bunga mekar di sana.....".

I was like, what the hell is he doing!!! apa mamat ni? terencat ke apa? dahlah botak, pakai seluar senteng and baju ketat. ( dalam hati lah...)

Tapi macam ok gak, gile gile and I actually fell for his attitude. Tu pun dah lama baru perasan & understood what i fell for him.. I thought he was quite a shy boy, cuma buat buat gile sebab nak cover malu. Macam attitude gak mamat nih. the way he talk, the way he behave. He was like a bad boy. And i do like bad boys. Peng peng! Ke naughty boy. Tak kisahlah.

And to sum it up, starting from there we have a little chat. He started to call me and asking me out. I remember few weeks after he called me up and invited me to watch his ACAB show at a gig kat Picadilly, Damansara. That was the first date lah kira. I remember waiting for him kat entrance Atria. Dia datang pastu masukkan envelope in my bag pack. Bila balik buka envelope tu ada gambar gambar ACAB. If im not mistaken, gambar tu copy untuk cover EP diorang, Fight For Your Right. Awwww....so sweet. Zaman dulu kalau dah suka mmg suka trade gambar. But i didnt gave him mine.

Masa tu i was 14. Belom PMR pun lagi. And he was 17. That was the first gig i went. And i still keep the little mod dress i wore that day.

8.5.96 we were officially a couple.

Bersambung....

fourteen-june-two-thousand-eight

2008-04-18T18:21:00.000-07:00

I am so happy whilst writing this new blog. This gonna be a big dedication and an appreciation to anyone and everyone who have spent some time and generousity for helping me & Edy out for the wedding.Hopefully blog ni kekal till i got my own kids.and they can read the story of their parents. :-) awwww... To my mama, i knew that for months, as soon as you open up your eyes in the morning, you have all the list in mind of what-to-do today for my wedding.hehe. and she'll be calling me more often lately ( like 10 x a day ).

tanye nak color apa lah, hanim bunga ni ok tak?, door gift tu nak letak mcm mana? belikan kotak ikea to store all the gifts,mama taknak membazir. kita buat simple je wedding nih, yang mana ibadat kita ikut,yg adat tak perlu.semua pakai baju yg dah ada je. hanim mama ingat nak beli kain songket for all the kidslah.mama dah beli kain untuk papa, cantik., mama nak bagi something lah untuk guest masa akad nikah, mama nak semua pakai cream, eh nak silver. eh, mama ingat semua pakai birulah. tak jadilah nak bagi gift XXX masa akad, mama nak bagi XXX.tak payah pelamin, its not our culture. hanim, mama dah call org pelamin, your pelamin will be at the living area. pulak! no VIP's are invited. Hanim, papa dah inform TM & MB, kalau diorang boleh datang kena standby meja VIP. hanim, bilik nak cat ke wallpaper. nak colour apa? bedsheet ni tukarlah. langsir kena tukar nanti org nak tengok. nak letak bunga ke tak kat beg doorgift? mama rase tak payahlah. hanim, mama dah beli bunga.mama penatlah buat semua nih. sepatutnya hanim dah kena standby semua ni. mama nak pergi terengganu ambik barang. kat sana elok elok. & murah. mama nak tgk benda lain jugak. aish, kata penat..........that was only a litle part of it. paling kesian, papalah yg kena bawk ke mana dia nak nak pergi.haish, haish.stress jugak, but on top of it, bila terfikir balik, i was touched.i'll miss the 'fickle minded' mind of her. walaupun setiap effort dia kadang kadang ada mengeluh, tapi still dia buat semua benda willingly without me asking. I love you Mom.

Untuk family, relatives and kawan kawan yg membatu, i'll post a new one soon ait!

i have another 1 month and 25 days heading up to the akad nikah ceremony.
am waiting for invitations that i've ordered from jakarta to arrived. above is the draft invitations of my 2 receptions.now, every night and day, and everytime i think about the wedding, i can't even think of who i am. hahaha.!gilelah.

we were casually engaged 2 weeks after the aidilfitri 2007 ( 20.10.2007, & was a day before my younger brother and a good friends's birthday ) and the nikah date was set earlier before that. nowadays, its the couple who do much of the decisions instead of the parents.
i like it that way though.

my akad would take place at my hometown in kuantan pahang on the 14th june 2008.most probably at the nearest surau or the beautiful mosque.
i am happy to announce that me & my fiance have completed all the requirements in order for us to get the 'surat kebenaran nikah'. yaaahooooo! we must get it ready 3 months before the akad, or else memang takde chance lah nak kahwin. it was a complicated process but i must say thay i enjoyed every moment of it. and not to forget surat to valid 3 months je, or else kena buat balik semua process which is listed below.

The Groom

Ambik borang 'permohonan nikah' dkt jabatan agama
Buat akuan sumpah bujang
HIV test ( oh yes, it's compulsary now ) kat clinic government only.
Meet up tok imam surau at your homie, atau ketua kampung atau ketua jkk and get their signature approving the fact that you live in that particular neighbourhood and still a bachelor.
bagi balik all the complete documents to jabatan agama. and holla, you'll get the 'surat kebenaran nikah'.
you gotta get the letter 3 months before your akad sebab ianya ada validity.
pass all your documents / sijil kursus kahwin and surat kebenaran to your beloved fiance.
now your part are done.

The Bride

the bride gotta complete this in 2 months time.
according to your ic's address. like mine, my address is in kuantan, so i gotta take the 'borang permohonan nikah' in kuantan and complete all the requirements there.
HIV test
signature from ketua kampung
siganture from jurunikah.
return it back to jabatan agama.
surat kebenaran nikah will release in a week time.

I got to take 2 off days to complete the form. Gile waste. Should have save more for the wedding. Dah lah tuh, at least nak balik kuantan kena spend rm200. petrol & yada yada. but its alright. im done.
now am waiting for all the baju to be ready. untuk nikah, Kudin from Radzwan Radzwill will be the tailor and Salikin Sidek will do my songket for the Kuantan's reception.A week after at Kampung Pengantin Ampang, my lovely Syomir Izwa Sen Gupta will prepare the dress and the suit for Edy. He'll be doing all the makeups and hair-so's too for the entire wedding ceremony.

Details will be up soon ok. Takot siut!!!!

Wedding Gift - The Wishlist

2008-03-31T07:01:00.000-07:00

Okay babeyh. I plan to keep my list organize & in track, so i put it on the web so i can share it with friends & family. I guess it would be more convinient & most importantly takde 'gift conflict' as it could avoid my friends from giving the same gift for the big day. Tak ke membazir namanye? :-) .I dont think i need 3 toaster & 2 iron at a time. So, friends & relatives,enjoy my humble list. Hehehe...

Air Purifier
Water Heater
Water Dispenser

Side Table Lamp Standing Lamp Reading Lamp Ceiling Lamp Bedroom Lamp* I seriously need lotsa lights in my new homie.

Pensonic Thermo Flusk Nanti dah ada anak boleh buat susu malam malam... *Kak Ti

Cloth Iron *Liza

Electric Kettle *Liyana

Samsung Fully Auto Washing Machine 7.0 kg & above

Blender cum Ice Crusher cum Grinder - chrome white * Zaza

Bread Toaster - chrome white - Diet Breakfast * Cipot

Rice Cooker *Zul Aman & Wife

Sony DVD Player

Sony Mini DV 3CCD Cam-corder *Hez

Hand Mixer * Sally & Zul ( Sally, I tuntut ok! )

Vouchers - Air Asia Ikea Tesco Aussino - *Fitriyah *Fairul